After I finished the sumptuous meal that Nika-sama had made for me, I thought absentmindedly as I washed the dishes.

(Maybe I should think about who the mysterious person is, the doubts are killing me!)

There is no way to know, but! … What if?! In the original scenario, Lily (in this case I, instead of her) will end up living in this town, right? 

So, no matter how many reincarnated people are there… No, wait! I wasn’t sure where I would end up living until my father arranged everything for me to live here!

Can it be that my father–

No, no! Considering his stubbornness about becoming royalty if he had that kind of power he would have used it to make me become the Queen, instead of sending me live here.

Also, there’s a possibility that ‘L’ is living in this town too, right? Yes, my father can’t be.

… Is a safe bet that Nana and Michelle, who I met here are commoners, at least that is sure. 

However, having a store is a good disguise… Or, as for Nana, is it possible that Jack, the pastor, is actually hiding her real identity, can that be? 

Oh no, how?! It’s possible that the first time we met, that fall was premeditated, an act to talk with me—

? 

That childish cuteness is all an act? 

Innocent childishness is an area where even I have a hard time acting, and I’m sure no one can lie that well.

As for Michelle, everybody knows her, she obviously has been living here all your life. 

It’s just a coincidence that I went to the bakery and got hired without previous experience, or… Also, is it possible that the great ‘L’ sells bread every day at the bakery to make a living? No, definitely not! 

And the prophecy… what’s the relationship with the character, I mean, me and ‘L’.

Oh no! I can imagine it!

— Ha ha ha! I was actually ‘L’ ! I’ve been fooling you all along, you idiot!

Whether it’s Nana or Michelle, I’d die if they said anything like that. If their kindness is a lie… I would despair, all my world would become a lie.

“…Yes, I believe in them! But at the same time that means I can be fooled by any of them. In the unlikely event that one of them is ‘L’… Maybe that doesn’t mean their love is a lie, like a pure manga lovely heroine, they can be doing it because they’re worried about me!”

Once the conclusion was reached, I packed up and left the house.

If I were to see Michelle, I would definitely end up buying bread and my promise to Nika-sama would be broken in less than an hour later, so I have only one place to go! The church where the girl I adore so much lives.”

“Oh, Fee-chan! …and what happened? Why are you looking so tired?”

“How– How do you know I’m tired?”

“The dark circles under your eyes! It’s a shame on such a beautiful woman! You have to sleep properly, or you will become a bear!”

I was still dizzy when Nana came running up to me and peeked at me worriedly, while I almost fell on the floor after being hit by such cuteness …Bear? Don’t tell me this kid believes the story of the tired bear that couldn’t fall asleep…? It’s too cute!!

But if you’re a commoner, you shouldn’t know how to read or write… I wonder if she went to the church’s school when preparing for being a nun.

However, that doesn’t change the fact that it’s too cute!

By the way, I couldn’t possibly say to Nana, “The prince barged in my house yesterday, and he didn’t want to go home until late, so I didn’t get much sleep.” 

“Something troublesome happened, and I couldn’t stop thinking about it, even when it was already midnight.”

“Hmm…”

Nana tilted her head in wonderment. It’s okay, you don’t have to understand my problems. I just want to be healed by Nana’s cuteness.

“I don’t know, but Fee-chan thinks too much about difficult things, so why don’t you take it easy and live a happy life! I often get scolded by my teachers for being too air-headed, hehe.”

Nana smiles shyly. I think that’s the mindset of a person who doesn’t understand depression, but anyway, I’ve been healed!

It’s good to think of solutions, but it’s also important to take time to just heal your wounds. 

Nana is my emotional support.

“By the way, Nana-chan, do you have a moment to spare?”

“Yes, I’m on a break! I’m always taking voluntary breaks when the teacher is out!”

Nana said proudly. That’s what people call slacking off.

“That’s why! Let’s have fun talking until he returns!”

Nana’s braids sway in response to her excitement and my stress is relieved.

Nana is always so cheerful, kind, and cute. I’m already wondering why such a girl exists in real life. 

Maybe God is sending her to save me from depression!

I was starting to have my sickening thoughts back, so I decided to follow Nana’s words and come up with a fun story.

“…but the bakery is closed right now, so… you know, it’s a fun story but …ah, hmm?” 

My current situation is rather too unrealistic to be replaced by a fun story, but if you look at it differently…

“… Nana. This is just a hypothetical question… if you were to reincarnate in a world that you know well, Nana… Like, with the knowledge of many things that will happen in the future in that world, how would you live?”

“Reincarnation?”

She seems to not understand what I mean. Well, the word reincarnation, previous life and so on, is probably something only people who read many fantasy books will understand.

There’s something like it in the religious books, but it isn’t the same, the meaning is different.

“I’m not sure if reincarnation is the right word. It is a person who died once and is born again. It is reincarnation, which means to be born again.”

“Ah! Wow, I see. Is it also called reincarnation? I’m learning something new every day!”

I’m sorry, she doesn’t know and if we think about it, I’m on a game, but officially in the game that word is never mentioned.

“Dreaming up stories like this is something I too love to do! Well, I would…umm…yeah! See, see it!”

I blinked at the unexpected answer, did Nana understand what I mean? Or she’s just replying to what she thinks I’m talking about.

She continues to talk with a look of pride on her face.

“Because I won’t know for sure if it’s really that world I think know about, or if it works in the same way I believe it should do.”

Well, she’s right. When I remembered everything, it was easy for me to notice since I was the heroine and had an engagement with the prince and everything… but if you reincarnate as a character with no name in the game, it’s normal to not notice. In the first place, depending on your status, there’s a probability that you’ll live the rest of your life without even knowing the names of king and the queen of the country.

If so, ‘L’, who seems to have noticed must be one of the main characters, or someone related to the plot.

“If it’s real, and I’m sure, then I’ll try to see if I can change the future making a move on my own.”

Ah… From the beginning my intention was of changing it, no matter what, but it’s true that you can’t know if it’ll work out or not. Maybe… Sometimes I doubted, about if the force of fate wasn’t too strong to defeat and change the story. 

…The opinions of others are very helpful.

“If I can’t change it… I’ll run away to a peaceful place and live comfortably, I mean… It’s scary! Don’t you think?”

How pragmatic. Yes, but some ‘problems’ can appear, for example: Me, how many time people appeared trying to take me back to that place?

Also, that is not so easy. You can’t just go to another place and start living, it would take more planning to do that.

“But if I can change it… If I can change really it!! From then on, I’ll do everything I can to make it a fun story! And of course, don’t tell anyone! … –End!”

Nana laughed and broke off the conversation with a cute smile.

Oh my goodness, she makes everything look so cute and fun! It’s okay for Nana to be ‘L’, even if she’s a reincarnated person like me! If she were ‘L’, somehow everyone would end up being happy, right? No? No, there’s no way that’s true…

“It’s fun to think about what ifs! The reality is that there are too many things that we can’t keep up with, so the only solution is keep working on!”

“I think Nana is working hard enough.”

Well, we’re resting now. But in the meantime, Nana is working! Helping this lost lamb find the path, yes! Nana is really a full-fledged nun! One of those wise and humble legendary nuns.

“But I still have a long way to go! You have to work harder too.”

“Ummm… by the way, why exactly?”

“To make everyone happy!”

Nana said that with a bright smile, of that smiles that can make all the clouds in the sky disappear! Ohh, not a nun but an angel, a real angel!

Even so, that guy before told me to not spoil Nana too much. She has work to do, and I’ve too but… If an angel like this appears before you, Oh! Anyone would walk over fire just to be able to see her a few minutes more.

“I’ll make you happy too, Fee-chan! Fee is my friend and friends are special!”

“Oh, right! Can we call each other for our nicknames from now on?”

“…? Fee-chan? Are you happy if I call you like this?”

“Yes! Definitely! Being closer with Nana makes me already so happy, if we become best friends then I’ll even more happier!”

“That’s right, it’s easy! Thanks or… No sorry, you’re welcome!”

Thus, Nana and I chatted until Jack came back to the church at noon. 

After I covered for Nana so that Jack wouldn’t be angry with her for not finishing her work, I was so full of happiness and pride that I simply forget about L, Nika’s worries about my eating habits and went home to plan dinner instead.

Then I wiped myself out with hot water as I’m not rich enough to take a bath every day, and went to bed feeling very calm, after my angel made my sorrows disappear.

“I’m going to sleep well today. Thank you, My Angel.”

In addition, that was the last day I spent without knowing anything about L

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